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Juggling the demands (and insanity) of being a high school teacher, a wife, and a mother to a toddler
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Whew!
This week was a bit alarming for me. I was really starting to feel that grad school might not be the right fit for me and my family.
Here's what happened this week. Sunday I started my first research project of graduate school and I remembered something important: I AM A HORRIBLE STUDENT. Really. It's true. I'm not organized. I procrastinate like crazy. And I have a hard time starting projects. I'm a good writer, so I do well in my classes, but it is painful. So I spent the whole day researching, but not writing. It was just really frustrating. I worked hard, but had little to show for it. Monday I had a staff (ugh) meeting. In 8 years of teaching, I have attended less than 10 meetings that could not have been better dealt with as a lengthy email. I didn't get home until 6. Had to work out, make dinner, get Em to bed, etc. I got precious little done on my research project. Tuesday I couldn't work on my paper because I had to attend a school board meeting for my class. It was pretty interesting (actually, it was helpful; there was a presentation on the achievement gap, my project topic.) But still, I had no writing done. Wednesday, the day I was supposed to have half my paper written, came, and I had still done no writing. Ugh. I had to admit to my professor that I didn't get it done. Very embarrassing. It didn't count for points, but still...ugh. So today has been all about redemption. After a nice breakfast out, Justin took Em to the grocery store so I could get some work done. And work I did. Finally, I got my confidence back. Whew! So far I have four solid pages written. I still feel a little out of my element (I am new to research, so I'm not totally sure of what I'm doing.) But I can actually visualize finishing this paper. I was really starting to doubt being in the program. I kept asking myself all week: "Are you really committed to this?" I can answer yes, I am, now to that question. Thank goodness. I'd feel really silly handing back all that loan money that just came in... 4 comments from 4 users
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posted by
wifemotherdaughtersister
on Sep 22, 2008 at 07:22 AM
posted by
AmandaS
on Sep 22, 2008 at 12:15 PM
You are a superstar, girl! No matter how overwhelmed you might be feeling!
posted by
creatress
on Sep 22, 2008 at 03:13 PM
I'm in awe that you can work full time and take the class. That's GREAT! Procrastination is not your friend. I'm behind on homework this week as well. SUCK! Good luck hon. Know there are other moms cramming just like you.
posted by
kellimwheeler
on Sep 22, 2008 at 05:38 PM
Way to get back in the saddle! Starting something new is always tough, but I know you'll find your rhythm. Or at least discover rotisserie chickens at the grocery store and instant mashed potatoes. Hey, something's gotta give... Very impressive, BTW adding graduate school to your three already full time jobs (wife/mother/teacher) - Good luck!
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but hey, if you can get through this, you can get through anything right?
and we're always here to help you and cheer you on!