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Full Moons and Safety Glass
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High, Low and Loose
I have one of those jobs where I have to switch gears constantly. I hardly have time in between meetings to recalibrate leaving me, at times, dazed and confused about what the agenda is for the next meeting. I spend a lot of time in confusion.

I blame the lack of sleep.

Usually at home, the switching of gears is more contained. As nuts as it can get around the house, typically a pattern of predictability in the schizophrenia emerges.

This afternoon, though, I was thrown for a series of loops. Loops of emotional highs and lows and everything in between…and all of these loops took place between 4 and 7 tonight. Nothing too dramatic happened, but there was just enough back and forth that it left me feeling, well, grey. And fuzzy. I feel like an old, grey, tattered sweatshirt. Used up, tired looking, with ketchup stains.

The lows included…
  • Ava got waitlisted at our first choice school for her open enrollment kindergarten for the fall. We have no idea what this means. The cruel form letter we got in the mail today was decidedly low on details, leaving us with no idea how to proceed.
  • I had to suffer through the “Wicked” soundtrack for the millionth time today. Oh, “Wicked” soundtrack…you seemed like such a good idea when you were first downloaded. Now, I have to spend all my commute time in the car with my kids constantly explaining each song and corresponding action to my four year old who is totally confused on the premise of the play. This wouldn’t be so bad, but it occurs every…single…day.
  • Paul and I fought with the girls again at dinner about the fact that they wouldn’t eat their dinner. Seriously, what kid doesn’t want pizza? And, why, why, why can’t the girls get through ONE MEAL without pitching a giant fit?
  • My cranky 14-year-old wiener dog who now has to live with my mom because he bites is staying with us temporarily. This is not the low (although my husband would disagree). The low is that it is now obvious that his back legs are on the verge of failing him. He can’t walk up the stairs on the back deck. It’s really sad. Poor Wiener.
  • Carmen and I got into a fight after I told her that, no, I couldn’t tape her banana back together.

There were some highs…
  • I left work early today to take the girls for desperately-needed haircuts. Both girls look adorable. Carmen got her bob sassed up and Ava’s bang-growing-out experiment is coming along nicely.
  • My twin nieces found out they get to scale back on their physical therapy. This means that their progress is on an awesome trajectory and the end of PT may be close at hand.
  • A really, really old friend found and chatted with me on Facebook. It was totally bizarre. What was amazing about the whole thing was that he and I commiserated about how dorky and awkward we used to be. I don’t feel dorky and awkward at all anymore, in any aspect of my life. Jeez…that only took 25 years.
But the most surreal thing that happened today was that my not-even-five-year-old Ava lost her first tooth.  When she told me on the way into the hair salon that her tooth was loose, I actually panicked. I thought she had hit her face on something and hurt herself. I called the dentist in full-freak out mode. They assured me that although, losing her bottom right tooth at 4 ¾ was early, it was not that unusual for a girl.

So, when Ava came out to the living room 10 minutes ago to show me the tooth in her hand, I couldn’t tell it if this was a low or a high.

I guess her lost tooth was just a reminder that life just keeps moving forward despite all of the kindergarten waitlists, geeky-phases, frustrating meals, and broken bananas.
Topics: emotional rollercoasters
posted by AmandaS on Thursday, March 12, 2009 at 07:33 PM
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posted by creatress on Mar 13, 2009 at 07:43 AM

I've been waiting for another juicy blog from you lady. You don't dissapoint and are ALWAYS worth the wait. Love it! You're always so inspirational in your fortitude. The captian of your ship, you do what's best for your family and do it every single day. You also make me really glad I only have 1 child. Hahaha.

I also got in contact with a really old friend recently on FB. Isn't life funny that way?

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posted by LoriA on Mar 13, 2009 at 12:04 PM
Thanks for the smile you just put on my face! I thought I was the only mom on earth with a kid who doesn't eat pizza. And the Wicked soundtrack a million times - for us it's been Mamma Mia, which thankfully we're finally done with! Then, the ketchup stains... I swear my little man gets most of his nutritional value from the amount of ketchup he inhales. Too, too funny!  What do you mean you can't tape a banana back together?
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posted by kellimwheeler on Mar 14, 2009 at 12:15 PM

Ahhh, another great one. About time! SacMoms better mark you as a franchise player before they lose you...

ps I think what you should do about Ava's letter is come to our school...

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posted by hmoeckli on Mar 15, 2009 at 10:02 AM

Ah, life is all about balance, isn't it? As long as you have a nice mixture of low and high, the day turns out okay. :)

Give me an email about your school situation. Depending on your district, I can probably help you find more information about how to proceed. There is always a way to get what you want in public education. :)

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